Friday, January 29, 2010

Tired

I am at the point with my classes, where nothing is easy. Well, it's not that they are extremely difficult, just time consuming. This semester is different. My entire college career, to this point, has been spent being a stay at home mother. This semester I am not only a mother, wife and full time college student, but am now trying to work on top of it. I feel so tired all of the time that I have noticed that I am getting very short with my family. And this really bothers me. It is not their fault and I feel bad for snapping at them. Trying to do homework, and get it done on time, work the schedule that I need to work, keep the house clean, and take care of my family, i guess, has just got me feeling a bit over whelmed. It may be that I am just not used to the constant on going of things to do anymore. I have not been this active as far as going in so many directions at once, in a very long time. I know that it comes down to time management, and that I just need to take a deep breath and everything will work itself out in the end. But, it is sometimes difficult to take your own advice.
On top of this, I am in the middle of a pretty big child custody battle, where I am trying to get my daughter back, just filed bankruptcy and in the middle of a workman's comp case. When I was young, I would never have thought that life would be this stressful. I now understand why my mother was always so cranky. I can not wait for things to settle.
Maybe I should have taken the semester off, but what would that really of accomplished. It would of just prolonged the inevitable. So, I guess that I will Just take a deep breath, let it back out and get on with my day.

1 comment:

  1. I know what you mean about being tired. I am a father of two, work full time at Joplin
    Supply Co., in the Army Reserves, and up until last week I delivered newspapers for the Joplin Globe. Good luck with everything going on. I hope you find sufficient time for all or your undertakings.

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